Jan. 28th 2023
Feeling: Peaceful
Today is January 28th, 2023 (Saturday). Yesterday was kind of nice, I wrote the blog and did nothing for the rest of the day, I needed it. Toward the end of the night, I wanted to do one last productive thing before I went to bed and decided to write some new stuff on my whiteboard to set in stone what I should and shouldn’t be doing. What I came up with are 4 sections. The first section is my current objectives. These are my must-dos and my minimum quota to meet. Currently, the only thing I have written in this section is to do this daily blog. The second section is my daily checklist which allows me to have a mental list of what I need to do each morning and I find that it more or less standardizes my process of getting up in the morning. The third section lists my “current skills” and “desired skills”. This is probably my favorite part because I already have a solid section of skills I have but it was interesting trying to brainstorm desirable skills. I think my top desired skills at the moment are “story writing” and “storytelling”. I think this skill is super valuable, to be able to write and put together a sequence of events or pieces of information in an intelligible way. I find when I try to explain something, my brain gets scatterbrained and what I want to portray usually comes out less effectively. The last section is something I’m testing out, which is affirmations. I think the word “manifest” is kinda bullshit but I think there is some potential in this brainwashing technique. My current affirmations include: “You deserve success.”, “Don’t let others decide for you.”, “Nobody can do what you do.”, and “You deserve to be heard.”. I’m kind of on the edge about this because this can be a very personal thing and others interpreting it could lead to a misunderstanding.
The first one, “You deserve success.”, is not something I struggle with, I desire success and I have no problem pursuing it. I think I deserve success already but it’s nice to hear it. The second one, “Don’t let others decide for you.” is more personal. As an introvert, I do tend to take the back seat more often than not. when I do that, my opinions are generally not voiced and I have to learn to be less selfless for my success. There is a balance to this but I shouldn’t let others decide my fate for me. The third, “Nobody can do what you do.”, is probably my favorite of the bunch but it is also the one that I would say would rub people the wrong way the most if they read it. I like this one from my own experience where I start an ambitious project and think to myself “someone else has probably already done this, what’s the point?” and that strips away all of my motivation and I then start a new project. I’ve been in this loop for a while and I believe this affirmation will help with this feeling of unoriginality. I want to think deep down my skills are unique and the product I make cannot be replicated 1:1 by another human. The last one “You deserve to be heard.” is kinda the same as the other ones. I think I’m too quiet the majority of the time and I think I have the potential to add value to conversations and other people’s lives.
I’m writing this blog at 4:00 since I worked this morning and just got home. I was thinking about what I was going to do when I got home all this morning and I think after finishing up and publishing this blog, I will practice my story writing skills. I think my end goal is to develop good enough story skills to cram them into 1-minute videos for youtube shorts and finally grow my youtube channel. I just figured that shorts are the fastest way to get your content in front of others and grow your channel. When I scroll through shorts, I get videos with 3 likes, poor quality, and barely relevant to the prior content. You can tell how many likes a video has simply from the quality of the video, the bar is set so low for youtube shorts right now so I think it’s time to jump on them. So, I think once I can develop my story skills and can write coherent scripts with flow and direction, I’ll be able to create valuable videos that are sure to catch the attention of others.
I have just been invited to go watch some bands tonight at my parent’s friend’s bar which sounds cool although it greatly reduces the amount of time I have to work seeing how it’s 5:40. I appreciate you guys reading until the end, please consider checking out my social media and if you enjoy this style of content, come back tomorrow for more!
